BrentBellez

I’m always going to be here for you, I promise you that. Not only are you the love of my life, but you are my best friend and my everything. You mean the world to me and more. I would do anything for you just so you can be happy. Whenever I’m not with you I miss you like crazy, even if we were just together a couple minutes ago. I never want to lose you or let you go. My life just wouldn’t be the same. You run through my mind all day everyday. It makes me happy and sad that you’re on my mind constantly because I’m happy that you’re a part of my life but I’m also sad because I miss you. I honestly don’t know where I would be right now if you weren’t in my life. I wish i could see you right now but I need to realize that we can’t be together 24/7. It’s ok because it gives us a chance to miss each other, which is good. I’m sorry for all the stupid shit I’ve put you through in these almost 2 1/2 years. Just know that I’ll always do my best to make you happy. I know I make you mad and annoy you all the time but I always try and make it up to you. You’re mine baby and you always will be. I’m really looking forward to spending the next 3 days with you at Disneyland :) we’ve needed this getaway for a long time. I’m glad I’m going to get finally get a chance to have some fun with you, just you and me and no bullshit. I love you with all my heart baby and I always will<3 I hope you feel the same way that I do.

Not only because I need to to, but because I want to.

Maybe I should stop caring so much and having such strong feelings about things. Literally everything that’s going on in my life, I have such strong feelings about. If I don’t care as much I won’t beat myself up as much if things don’t go the right way or as planned. Hmmmm just something for me to think about.

That’s why I stay up so late now because your voice isn’t there to calm me down anymore.